Let it go, let it go, let it go...

Do you ever feel as though no matter how hard You work at it, pray about it or just scream it into a pillow there are some things you just can't hand over to God?  I'm there. And the infamous pit of anxiety, aka Satans phernome, is eating away at me.
Please pray that i can let go, and let God.

Thanks friends.

Another save!

I haven’t posted my shopping endeavors in a while, and last night I was so stinkin’ excited I almost did it at 0100 this morning!!  I haven’t seem to have a real good shopping trip these last few months.  Seems that all the sales have dwindled, coupons are a bit more scarce and selective (despite having 3-4 sets of weekly copies) but it could be the time of the year as well.  I know some of you think I’m crazy for doing it, say you don’t have the time or patience but when you have a family of 6+ and you choose to have a parent home at all times, then you find ways to save money.  Remember, I’m not an “Extreme Couponer”…just a mom looking to save about 50% of her weekly total in loyalty and coupon savings.  I do my best to keep about a 3 month supply of non-perishables, cleaning and hygiene products; more like 6-12mo! I also have money left over to get the staples mild/bread/eggs and fresh produce. So here is how I did:

21           boxes of cereal  (we go through a lot)

                                (4) Honey nut cheerios

                                (5) Cinnamon toast crunch

                                (3) Fruity pebbles

                                (3) Cocoa pebbles

                                (6) Honey Bunches of oats

2             Ritz Bits

2             Wheat Thins Chips

2             Wolfe Brand Chili (mmm…Frito pie!!)

3              2-liter store brand pop

4             Pasta Roni

3              Nestle Hot Cocoa

2             Green Giant Veggie Steamers

3              Jose Ole frozen snack

3              POM drinks ($0.99)

2             32 oz International Delight creamers

4.5#      beef ($1.08/lb)

3#          chicken thighs ($0.49/lb)

3              32 load Tide Detergent

1              Clorox bleach

2             Glad freezer bags

2             Glad storage bags

2             Thera-flu ($0.99 ea)

1              Triaminic children’s pain reliever ($0.99)

4             Crest Complete Whitening ($0.29)

2             Skintimate Shave gel

2             Axe gift sets ($0.99 ea)

2             Axe shower gel ($0.99 ea)

2             Orajel Spin brush (design my own)

The last 3 are stocking stuffers.  I paid $0.99 for each Axe product (the boy lives in this stuff!) and the girls have begged me for the toothbrush which was on sale for $4.99 and I had a $2 coupon. Josh will laugh at the toothpaste (because we have enough for a year already) but at $0.29 who can say no!!!! I walked out of Tom Thumb with a skip and a grin having saved $105.01

Grand total for both stores:

$282.56

Paid:

$116.03

Total savings of 59%  

 In Him,Forever Blessed~

Jenny

Thanks?

I know, I’ve done it again. Looonnnnggg dry spell in the world of blogging. But in my defense, I am an awful writer. My mind is always running 100-miles an hour and fingers can by no means keep up. Heck, I can’t keep up with it!

Thanksgiving was very laid back and quiet for us.  I love having large family gatherings, dinners especially, but this year most everyone had to work Friday and cooking a large meal with no one to send leftovers home with was just not appealing to Josh and I.  So we opted out for a large pot of stew (which when doubled, didn’t cook as fast as I wanted!!) hot yeast rolls and the infamous green bean casserole.  It was yummy, our family of 6 was all present and the weather perfect to be outside in.  Josh had taught Abby and Keara to ride bikes without training wheels!!  Let me remind you that my birthday gift was a new camcorder so I was very excited to capture this on film.  Sadly, I realized the reason it wouldn’t focus was because the battery was dead. Really??  I amaze myself sometimes.

Let’s move on to the infamous “Black Friday”. Two words I have come to dread. Not because of crowds or sales, but the sheer fact that society has taken the “Thanksgiving” part of the season away and turned it into who-has-the-best-sales-so-we-can-plan-our-trip-over-a-few-nibbles-of-turkey-and-dressing. HELLOOOOO people!  Thanksgiving is rooted in remembrance and gratitude for our religious freedoms, personal freedoms and for all we as individuals are blessed to have.  It is a disgrace that we as a society have allowed the media and Corporate America to turn that focus to the materialistic addiction and idolatry we as a country are engulfed in. Is it so hard to take 1 measly day and spend it with good friends, family, food and fellowship?  To forget that there are retail stores, or any stores, and let everyone celebrate one day of THANKS?? Why not just rename it Black Friday Eve. What a pathetic lifestyle.  So I urge you to join me in my Anti-shopping-on-any-REAL-Holiday-day.  (And for the record, if school is out for a Mexican holiday, can they also be out for Veterans Day…a US Holiday??)

 

On to the more recent and pressing issue. My dear husband.  5 weeks ago he was hit from behind by a hit-and-run driver who pushed him into a barrier, onto a median where his transmission cracked open and then proceeded to drive off.  Well, on Monday while driving our brand new 2011 Subaru Legacy, he was hit from behind while sitting at a red light.  The driver (according to police) never braked based on no tread marks. 3 days later he is still in bad pain, but is under the care of our PCP who is extraordinary. That is all I will say about it, but I worry about golf…his livelihood.  I pray for God’s healing.  I know He will take care of us.

In Him,Forever Blessed~

Jenny

 

Just a Post

What a week this has been. We had the family over last Sunday (23^rd) for a big lasagna dinner, which Josh made…Yummy!! It was nice to have everyone together, I miss family meals.  They were fairly routine when I was growing up, but once we moved to Texas we didn’t have any family around.  My in-laws were in town babysitting my neice and nephew, so that made it extra special J

Josh went to his best friends house later that night to watch the Ranger’s game, and while coming home, had an accident that resulted in a cracked transmission and the car was totaled out. *sigh*.  Yes, he is alright, other than completely stressed about the situation (and I’m praying him through it).  I’m still unsure about it all.  It has a surreal feel to it since I’ve yet to see the car, and obviously never will.  We are currently in the process of researching/looking for a new one.  That is the part that turns our stomach as the cars are paid off and now we will have another car payment. Ugh. I am however, grateful that we will pretty much be in the same financial state since 2 more debts will be paid this month which carry a combined total monthly payment equal to what we hope to have as a car payment J So thank you for no additional increase in outflow.

I am very grateful and thankful to my awesome friend Jen who is carpooling both ways while we live with one vehicle. She rocks!!

I have realized as of late that I do not have a large following within my family when it comes to Christianity.  My “step father” Rick is a strong rock of faith.  I can always count on him for prayer and support.  Everyone is pretty nonchalant or non believing. One can only pray that through action and example, each will come to accept Christ as their personal savior.  My life is forever changed because of Christ, and I can’t begin to tell you how much better it is!! That is, unless you ask me J  

Homeschooling has weighed heavy on my mind.  Each morning when I have to get the girls up at 0630 and then do homework at 3 I wonder “why?”.  I mean, is 7 hours in public school not enough time to accomplish what they need to?  I could facilitate a better learning environment in half that time.  Not instruct them in what the state is mandating, but foster their learning.  Big difference. Huge.

You are more than choices that you’ve made

you are more than sum of your past mistakes

you are more than problems you create

you’ve been remade.

‘Cause this is not about what you’ve done, but whats been done for you.

This is not about where you’ve been, but where your brokenness brings you to.

This is not about what you build, but what He built to forgive you

And what He built to make you know

~You Are More (by Tenth Avenue North)

In Him,Forever Blessed~

Jenny

Shiny and New

Almost 2 yrs to the day, I am finally with a new (to me)computer!  Funny thing about it, I don’t seem to know what to do with it?  I sit here contemplating “should I surf the net?” , “blog?”, or better yet “turn it off because I’ll end up realizing its 1 am without knowing what happened.”  The last is probably the best option.  But here I sit, eyes and neck burning as if I haven’t done this in forEVER.

I have the let’s-look-for-a-new-home itch again.  I think Josh just goes along with me to so that I stay occupied J  We live in a 3 bedroom, 1800 sq foot home.  It’s modest, and I am so grateful that we are not “house-poor”, but if my dear husband does not want to wall off our front room or buy bunk beds or do something, then we need to seriously consider moving to a 4 bedroom.  So I started looking.  I’m carousing my neighborhood because I really do like it and want to stay close.  We have the most awesome tax rates. But honestly, I’d go anywhere and I’m not picky about the prettiness.  It wouldn’t have to be a fancy house is what I’m saying.  New or pre-owned. 

I think I’m nesting.  What hasn’t been a burning desire is now becoming one.  That little spark is becoming a flame and it’s taking all my strength to give it to God.  Just put it in His hands, on His yoke Jenny. I fully entrust Him to do with me as he wills.  I love the saying, “If He wills, then we will”.  If only I had a spouse who felt that desire along with me.  But I don’t, so I have to feel it for the both of us.  I mirror a lot of things, letting my behaviours and grace-filled responses reflect back to him.  To my dh that is. I can’t modify it to “…then I will” because that is putting my needs ahead of ours, and this is a covenant of marriage regardless of his belief.

Well..tomorrow comes early in this house.  Plus, the Rangers are playing, have to watch some baseball! 

Forever Blessed~

Jenny

Sometimes I just come to the realization that I'm not a blogger. I think about a lot of things, have so many odd things, funny things happen but I'm awful at writing them down. Our should I say typing them up! Hmm. There's something to contemplate...write it DOWN or type it Up.

I failed to pre-think just what body mechanics we were involved in painting my door frames and base boards. Until I woke up this morning. Ugh! Talk about sore legs! Squat, stand, squat, stand, repeat...

Im tired. Ashlynn is sick which leads me to believe that tonight will be a long night.  So I am going to get a head start on sleep. Oh, and watch some Texas Rangers win the series!!

A Gentle Reminder

I am Perpetually with you, taking care of you. That is the most important fact of your existence. I am not limited by time or space; My Presence with you is a forever-promise. You need not fear the future, for I am already there. When you make that quantum leap into eternity, you will find Me awaiting you in heaven. Your future is in My hands; I release it to you day by day, moment by moment. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow. I want you to live this day abundantly, seeing all there is to see, doing all there is to do. Don't be distracted by future concerns. Leave them to Me! Each day of life is a glorious gift, but so few people know how to live within the confines of today. Much of their energy for abundant living spills over the time line into tomorrow's worries or past regrets. Their remaining energy is sufficient only for limping through the day, not for living it to the full. I am training you to keep your focus on My Presence in the present. This is how to receive abundant Life, which flows freely from My throne of grace.

Matt 6:34; John 10:10; james 4:13-15

This is from my Sarah Young devotional, Jesus Calling

Thoughts Over Dawn

Washing dishes.  I'm sure it drums up fond memories for we "late 30-something" folks. A time before electric dishwashers were present, much less a staple in every American home.
Marriages have been weighing heavy on my heart lately. As a woman in a spiritually unequally yoked covenant, it surprises me a bit. Not only am I witnessing the demise of marriages with friends, watching close friends fall away from the church and Christianity, seeing couples place a lot of "me" and no "you" in their lives and I'm seeing it from a whole new perspective.  It is the accumulation of my own search into building a stronger Christian marriage within my own home. LOTS of reading.
I'm currently half-way through Surviving a Spiritual Mismatch in Marriage. I am taking so much more away from this book than I ever imagined!! Not only that, but I believe the principles can be applied to any relationship. One conviction I have, is to earnestly pray if this is a way my LORD wants me to serve. Could I be a mentor to another woman in my place?

Oh, yea, the reason I stopped scrubbing to blog! Taking into account my above thoughts, along with my immense gratitude in being home with my kids and I had another "light bulb" moment.  First, might the trend in job lay-offs be God's way of making people change priorities, but maybe it's an attempt to transition families back to a Biblical standard ; having a parent in the home at all times. That being said, my door to UTA closed because I took my focus off of what He wanted and began to place myself as center. By closing off the opportunity, I was awakened to my place in my home, my place in His plan and most importantly, His place in my heart/life.

Wake up, O sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.
Ephesians 5:14

JOY:
Jesus
Others
Yourself

PEACE:
Pray
Empathize
Act
Confess
Emmulate

A seed begins to grow

Last Sunday I was informed by Abby's Sunday school teacher that she needed to bring her Bible each week. They are now learning to navigate their way through, learn the books and reference & read Scripture.  Well, Abby doesn't have a complete Bible, just a new testament and her book of bible stories. 
So Friday I had errands to run which included Half Price Books (for me and a book exchange) when lo and behold, not only a nice leather bound young girls NIV Bible, but 20% off! Score one for the faithful, love a good bargain.  So, as my grandmother did in 1984, I bought Abby her very first Bible. 
But it gets better! Later that afternoon I was checking my emails and noticed one from Christ Fellowship, children's minister David Klippert-Rowe. In it he proceeds to enlighten me to how Abby is voicing interest in who Christ is and how she can share him with her friends :D could a parent be more excited!! Ephesians 6:4 "...bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord"
She informed me this morning that during the night, if she wakes up or can't sleep, "I turn on my little light and read my Bible". Oh, my sweet and precious Abigail, I hope you always keep your little light shining; shining bright for the whole world to see!

Week 1 Survived!

We made it through the first week of school. Thank.God!  Talk about a beating.  Keara, bless her heart, she is loving school but her body is not adjusting well to such an early rise along with 7 hours of school.  I had her nap this afternoon because she was so touchy, emotional and cranky!! On the flip side, her teacher let us know how wonderful she is doing, that she is a leader and how the other girls look up to her :) Not what I expected!! Go Keara!
Abby is miss pleaser. She wants to be the best, her behavior is impeccable and she has to play mother hen to the 3 boys at her table. Her teacher recognizes this and compliments her on it :) She has a definite drive I hope she retains.

I must say, I still wish I could of had the chance to homeschool them.  I miss having my house full of organized chaos, the sound of siblings laughing and learning together.  Our table time each day, field trips when it suited us. No time constraints or consequences for not attending a set number of days. *sigh. Maybe one day, maybe.

I Got Ian!

Ok, so today started out so much better! He even reminded me to get a photo (and some from his phone, too)  This is such a scary year for me. Part of me is so excited for what God has in store for Ian, the other part is nervous for what potential disasters/choices he could make. He truly is growing into a fine young man, and we are so very grateful to God for his presence and guidance in Ian's life. My prayer is that Ian continues to keep his heart open to the word, continues to be a strong Christian example and reflect daily on how is actions/reactions affect other people.  Our children live in such a desensitized and morally corrupt generation, it is our duty to empower them with a strong moral foundation but also equip them with the knowledge to make wise/educated decisions. 
I love you Ian, and I am so very proud God allowed me the chance to be your mom.

The First and Last First

Grrr. Figures! It's his "last first day" and the only time I failed to get a picture.  It sure wasn't due to a lack of effort, oh no, it was all mood related. Talk about a stressful morning. And tense. Let's just say our wonderful son's egocentric entitled teen personality reared its ugly head. But after a day of thinking (and 2 weeks without his wheels) all is forgiven. At least by his dad.
The girls on the other hand, had a wonderful morning!  I did come to see that Keara needs to be woken about 15 min before Abby so she can actually wake up. She's my slow to rise, and she isn't hungry very quick. So she'll eat last. Abby, well she can be ready and fed in 20 minutes.  Gotta love a quick girl!  They both did great today and look forward to returning tomorrow.  Abby is in first and has Ms. Stregal, Keara is in kindergarten and has Ms. Strober.
May I present Abby & Keara!

*shrug*

I sit in front of this computer with my fingers on the keys staring off into space.  So many times I think "I need to blog about this" and then when the time comes....my mind is a blank slate.

Keara is back to her old self (praise the prayers!) and her left foot is about 98% healed.  We are so glad to have her home and healthy.  I can't thank my neighbors and  my co-workers enough for being so supportive and willing to go the extra mile for me.  I was reminded again of this in Church today, the topic being Relationships in Christ, having true relationships/friends, not just aquaintinces.  My number of those may be small, but they are very deep.  You all know who you are, and I love you beyond measure.

Today also marks the day of a faithful journey, albeit a very personal one.  Josh is essentially spearheading this one, and I am so grateful to him.  Those of you who know me or follow me, you understand how deeply touching this topic is to me.  I even sent out weekly reminders to him about this day giving him ample time to "back out" or change his mind.  So our feet have stepped off into the unknown and may our faith in His holy works and destiny light the way. I shall keep you posted as changes come about :) 

Ian.  Oh, Ian.  God knows how much I love our son.  He is one phenomenal kid, but as with all "kids" who are about to turn 18, he has made a choice that is permanent.  Unless he chooses to pay big money to reverse it.  He has joined the Tatoo club.  I knew this day was coming, but truly hoped it would be after highschool.  I equipped him with questions to ask himself in regards to the permanent nature of his inking, and it seems he did.  He chose to have the latin phrase Cruce Salus inked across his upper front chest.  Best location? Probably not, but nothing I can do to change that, right?? In latin, it means from the cross comes salvation. Sadly, Ian did not take Latin.  Therefore he failed to have the A placed: A Cruce Salus.  That is the formal phrase.  Live and learn, son. 

Well, not sure what to blog about right now.  The girls are watching a Veggie Tales movie, Ashlynn is napping, Ian went to run an errand for me and I have about 5 loads of laundry waiting for me.  Oh, and dinner needs to be prepped.  Guess that's my cue to sign off.....

Sweet keara

So here I sit, at Childrens Hospital New Orleans with my 5yr old daughter. She may be our tiny, petite one, but man does she have a strong spirit! This little girl has lived with a chronic skin disease since 2 months old and this is her second hospitalization for a severe staph and strep infection. I think the strep worries me more since it is the causative agent for necrotizing faciatis. No bueno. Praise God we have not faced that!
Friday. It was the last day of her and Abby's visit with grandma and grandpa Cavender.  A movie day at that!  Until Keara woke up with pus filled blisters all over her left foot, partially on her right foot and scattered on her hands. I freaked out! As any reasonable mom would, right??
I enlisted the prayers of all the people I know, bowed heads with my friend/neighbor Jenn, and booked a flight out first thing Saturday morning. It was a day full of emotions, a rollercoaster at best. But Josh and I have been through this before and have raised her through this from birth.  We are strong, and despite emotions, we understand each others view points but respect each others needs and feelings. And he recognizes my faith.
Onward to Saturday. God was with me from the get go! We arrived at Love Field at 0645. My flight departs at 0730. The lines are OUTRAGEOUS!!  I mean, close to 100 in the security check point, another 50-75 for baggage check!!  I'm NOT making this flight!!!  I start crying and I haven't even moved my feet. Have faith Jenny,  have faith. Bless the couple in front of me who handed me an A-1 card which put me at the front, praises to the TSA officer who directed me to a checkpoint with less than 20 people and for God speed in making it to my gate with less than 5 min to spare. I checked my bag at 0710. With Him, I made it. Each of those people today were a blessing to me.

she is currently on IV Vancomycin every 6°.  We should have the sensitivity results back tomorrow to know which antibiotics she will be given by mouth when we leave.  In the meantime, I will be patient and take good care of her skin; advocating on her behalf.
I didn't get into the BSN program.  That's okay, I have my family. And I get to fly off and take care of my baby girl.

trip, trip, Hooray!

Oh, my Lord! Where ever do I start!?  We have finally returned from what was the most wonderful, relaxing and bonding vacation J 

I loaded my 3 girls into our van and headed to Rochester NY, leaving Josh and Ian home.  I cannot begin to compliment my kids on how absolutely great they behaved!!  I mean, 3 kids strapped into car seats for 14 hours 2 days in a row!!  That’s a 6, 5 and 15 month old, not teenagers.  It was truly memorable, for me and for them.

We spent our first day relaxing and catching up with Grampi and Mimi (my dad and step-mom).  Cousins Sophie and Sydney came for dinner with Aunt Amy (my sister in law) and you would have thought these girls have grown up together.  Not one bat of an eyelash, they were playing and running.  Mind you, it’s been 3 years since we’ve been home, so they were all 1, 2 and 3 yrs at the last visit.  But they are good about writing and drawing pictures to mail each other. 

Friday, we all loaded up with Grampi, Mimi, Aunt Amy and the girls and headed to Hamlin Beach State Park for a day of swimming (Lake Ontario), sandcastle making and a picnic lunch.  It was a beautiful day, the water temp about 68 degrees. Dinner was a huge fish fry and Abbott’s frozen custard for desert.  We were all stuffed by the time we got home!

Saturday was family filled as my cousin Becca graduated HS from Aquinas Academy!  Great Aunts, Uncles, cousins, nieces and nephews…you name it.  It was such a true blessing to see everyone.  My 90 yr old grandma looked fantastic.

Sunday was a Templar gathering J  It would have been my Grandma’s birthday, so it was a bittersweet celebration.  Yes, it’s been 10 years, but it’s still hard sometimes.  My Great-Aunt Eve was there, so we all had an extra beer in her honor!  Nothing better than fellowship with family J Then, I later had a great night out with Amy.  A much needed girls night enjoying some of Upstate NY’s finest Microbrew selections! Might I suggest Rohrbach’s Scotch Ale?

Monday was a day for the girls…took them all to the Strong Museum of Play and WOW!! Talk about over-stimulating!!  I needed an extra cup of coffee and some Tylenol to get through that place.  So much for them to do, but far too much for this OCD/Near-anxiety-attack mom!!! Wish we had a place like that here in Texas.  

Tuesday…ah Tuesday. We FINALLY had the chance to be home for my step-mom’s birthday!!  It was her 70^th, I know she will kill me for giving it away, but I love her no matter how young she is!!  A great big family dinner, complete with cake, pie and ice-cream.  I sat back in my chair that night and realized again just how much my kids are missing out on.  But I then realized that if I make family a priority in their lives, they will hopefully be that much more inclined to stay closer and raise their kids together.  I want to re-start a new generation of family, one that leans on each other, supports each other and fellowships together…regularly. I do wish I had more time to share the Gospel with them all.  I hope I made a small impact with my actions and conversation!

 

I’m not uploading pictures to this.  I have a few posted on FB, but most are in an album.  Something we can open, talk about, touch and feel. 

If there is one thing I can recommend, take your kids on a road trip.  Forget the DVD player and just talk, read and enjoy each other’s company.  Not one of us is promised tomorrow.  My goal was to give my kids another set of memories to revisit when they grow up, or when I’m gone.  A reminder of how blessed each and every one of us is to have another human to call family.  It’s when we don’t have those relationships that we realize just how lonely life is.  When we lose the bond that only a spouse, parent or sibling can offer do we realize how empty our lives really are.  It’s not the proximity, it’s the depth of love and lasting bond.  Even I came to see just how isolated I am.  How desperate I am to have the bonds that my closest family can offer.  I have Christ.  I have Salvation.  I have my Redeemer who pours out his love, surrounds me with his presence and embraces me each time I bow my head or am on my knees.  He loves me.  And that is so much more than some people have.

 

Foerver Blessed,

Jenny

 

Once Upon a Time

I was reminded tonight of the luxuries of life we have come to expect, dare I say, are entitled to.  What started out as an "*sigh*...well, I guess I don't have any choice" to thinking how blessed I truly am, how wonderful my life is and how much I miss the simpler days.

Josh finally had time to call and the decision was made that we would have the small repair done on the van before I leave Tuesday morning.  That means either arranging to drop it off first thing tomorrow morning or tonight utilizing their drop box.  (I was very comfortable doing this, Christian-family owned company)  So after trying to figure out how I was going to get the van there and get home, I made my choice.  You see, Ian was home so I had another driver, but Ashlynn was asleep.  My neighbor is out of town.  I'm trying to figure out how to get home. Mind you, it's all of maybe 2 miles. 
So...walk.  Really, Jenny, just walk.  How hard is that?  What would your grandfather have to do? Or your grandma with her 5 kids?  They would walk.  Because that was the only choice.  So I did :)

It was a nice walk, I might add.  Not only was the weather cooling off a bit, but in my first 1/2 mile I saw a loose steer, a Shepard guard dog, the sweet horse on the corner, barbwire fencing, overgrown fields, straw along the gravel roadside, and little critters.  I missed not seeing the big gardens, but unless it rains, then the gardens die.  That's how it used to be done.  You want water on your veggies?  Pray for rain.  There weren't "sprinkler systems" and fancy irrigations.  You collected rain water. God was in control of what grew and what crops would benefit.  You planted to allow for shading in the heat and built your houses according to direction.  North and South so that you had minimal window exposure on the East and West, kept the house cooler.  Not based on the best lot in the best neighborhood.
Oh, how I was being humbled and reminded of where my priorities should be.
Then...back to reality.  I pass Fire Station (lucky) number 7 and it's back to manicured lawns, common areas with regurlarly scheduled watering by irrigation systems. *sigh*.  Are we really that shallow?  Is it that necessary to have a large waterfall as your neighborhood entrance?  Aren't we on a water restriction? Funny thing is, I have neighbors that water religiously every other day (against restriction) and I haven't watered mine in a month, yet you can't tell.  Our lawns look the same.  It's Texas, people.  Let the Bermuda die and reseed in September.  Seriously.  It's cheaper. And who really cares what your lawn looks like?  You are never outside for your neighbors to acknowledge it!!
I'm grateful my grandparents (and their generation) were not as shallow, not as entitled and much more engaged with their neighbors and communities.  Without the need of a political HOA board.

I am grateful for the many blessings my God pours down on me, each and every day.

Oh, my lord.

I am the world's worst procrastinator!  I officially have 1 day and a few hours to start getting things together for our trip.  I have nothing packed.  I did however, get the oil changed and tires rotated today! 
Here's the scoop. 
1.  My phone is broke and I'm awaiting a replacement in the mail. PRAYING it gets here by Monday.
2.  My mom is not going to be able to travel with us.  That leaves me and 3 kids to make the journey.         BOTH ways.
3.  The van needs a replacement part.  $180.00. 

Why do I feel as though I'm not supposed to go?  Eh. I can do this!  Gratefully, the part/labor is only $180.  Grateful I have a back-up phone if mine doesn't come, thanks to my awesome son who just got a new one Thursday and has not had his old service discontinued! And I've made the drive before and many trips to NOLA which is 10 hours for me. 

I recall a phrase on a church sign in Lakeside, Tx (outside Azle).  "Be grateful for stumbles, they prevent falls" How true.  My God will protect us, and he will take us through it all.

Now, on to that packing......

Awaiting...

Just a quick note:  I am now only waiting to hear from UT Arlington's School of Nursing as to my acceptance into the RN-BSN program.  Please, please! let me in!!!!!  I need to get into a NP program before they make it a DNP!!!

Phew *shrug shoulders*, I can breathe I sigh of relief.  We spent 9 days wondering if Josh had bone metastases to his pelvis and lower rib cage.  Now, understanding he is only 36, you must also understand his history and current health-risks.  He has had GI issues all his life, is a pack a day smoker, moderate drinker (like most of society), family history of cancers and a bit overweight.  So he legitimately has risk factors.  But by the grace of God, his bone scan came back negative :)  Whether or not this moves him to make a few lifestyle changes is up to him.  I hope so, but a nagging wife accomplishes nothing. He is still suffering from some gallbladder vs "I don't know what" issues that he would like a "cure" for (without making lifestyle changes), so we just keep moving forward...
I took Keara for another horse lesson today and she had a BLAST!  This time was Western Saddle, barrel racing style.  I think we will definitely stick with Hannah for as long as we can (she will be a freshman in college this year).  She is great with Keara and lets her progress at her own pace.  Keara was ready to "run" with the horse, even corralled some steer during her lesson :) 
Poor Ian.  The "great" KIA is without AC and will cost roughly $1200 to repair.  That's about $200 over the KBB value.  So....NO.  But does he complain about it, nope.  He just puts the windows down and heads off to work.  He is a phenomenal kid!!!  I am so proud of him!!
Sometimes I think about friends from my past.  I wonder how God is working in their life and how their families are.  Some I can check up on by email, others I choose to keep wondering.  No point in going back with certain people, just keep moving forward confident in my decisions.  Christine, I think, doesn't keep in much contact due to the emotional turmoil of lost pregnancies and no children while I have 4.  I can totally understand and we do talk on rare occasion.  She knows I love her :)
I'm looking forward to church Sunday.  I feel like I have been so overwhelmed with summer that I have lost contact with my lord and scripture.  It's the quiet times I remember this, and there have been very few of those lately.  I'm going to shut this down, soak in the tub, read some scripture and go to bed. Early for a change. 

Just a Monday

I can't get over how fast this summer is going by!  There is less than 2 weeks until July!!  Right now we are just counting down the days until we leave for Rochester.  The kids are so excited and how fun it is going to be; a road trip with Nana.  That puts 3 generations of girls together :)  If only Grandma was still around, she would love it. 
We didn't do much for father's day.  We don't tend to really "celebrate" the Hallmark holidays.  We try to put each other first in our everyday lives and purposfully acknowledge our appreciation for each other daily.  Josh did pick Mooyah's for dinner Saturday, probably because the girls would be excited, and they did make him cards.  Me, I like to give him a personal card/note because a store-bought card never says everything it should.
I'm taking Keara to a horseriding lesson Friday.  Western riding this time.  I don't think it will matter for her as long as she is on a horse.  This young girl who is going to instruct her was recommended by a friend at work.  She is very reasonably priced and they have all the supplies Keara would need, including helmets!!  So even though it's a bit of a drive, it all works out better.  And cheaper.
I am picking up my neice tomorrow after work, Katie is 10, and she is going to spend a couple nights with us.  She is an only child and really enjoys the girls.  She is so well behaved and mannered!  I love having her around :)  We will spend some time swimming, hanging out and maybe a movie?  Just relax and enjoy the time.
I'd like this week to be over with.  There are a few things going on, and once they are past I can breathe a little easier.  I know, part of me wants to talk about it, but I really must wait. Sorry for the mystery.  And NO, it has nothing to do with pregnancy.
Must go and clip coupons now!!

Stoked!!

Sometimes I just tickle myself :)  I got a little excited this week after my long, 3 hour grocery shopping trip.  First, I saved 61% at Tom Thumb...yea me!!  Let me tell you though; the gentleman checking me out was drooling at the thought of nailing me with the coupon policy.  Shame on him! He actually went back, dug in the bags, to make sure I purchased said items. Really?? I found out that they "revisited" the policy about 2 months ago and made a few changes, one which screwed up my plans or I would have saved more. 
     Tom Thumb now does not accept a coupon for a "free" item.  With a BOGO sale, you can only count the paid item as a coupon transaction.  So what that meant for me was the 6 bottles of Classico Spaghetti sauce I purchased was only going to net me $1.32/bottle when I would have paid $0.99/bottle.  Not a huge loss, but a loss none the less.  So please be sure to frequently check your store policies.  You can do that from the store website.  On a funny side note, he did accept my coupons for Ken's Dressing and Tyson Ready Made Chicken; both were BOGO and I had a coupon for the "free" one (snicker, snicker)...
     So here is how I did: For all 3 stores (Tom Thumb, Alberston's and Kroger) the grand total was $304.25.  With reward savings and coupons I paid $149.96.  Not bad!!  I saved just over 50% which is always my goal.  I got:
6 boxes of Frosted mini-wheat's (strawberry and chocolate..no blueberry left)
6 bottles of Classico Sauce (Alfredo, too)
2 bottles of Ken's dressing (THA best!)
3 packages of Huggies Diapers (only had 3 coupons!!)
3 containers of Huggies baby wipes @ $0.49 each!!!!
9 Pringles
4 Cheeze-its (no coupon, but $1.75 each)
2 Pepperidge farm frozen cakes ($1.49 each)
4 Dananino yogurt packs
6 bags of M&M's. (OK, not needed but at $1.24 for the big bag...come on!)
4 Mrs. Dash (some for my mom, coupon was going to expire and they were finally on sale)
10 packs of Kool-aid (not healthy, but .10 each)
4 12-packs of Sprite/Coke (only paid for 2)
2 bags of potato chips (FREE!!)
And of course my fresh fruit, dairy, bread, Ashlynn's pasta, Drano and meat that I need.
So all in all, a good trip. 
 Let's just say I told Josh I need more room to put "the end of the world supply".  Closet is getting cramped.

AND I found a website to update you on the yearly insert send outs; www.sundaycouponpreview.com

*sigh*

Sometimes life gets far to busy.  Sometimes it seems to fly by, yet I feel as if I have been nothing short of lazy.  I’m not a fan of lazy, I like to get things gone and then spend time relaxing.  What I have tried really hard to do is just enjoy life. 

The kids are out for summer, so I’m focusing on soaking in all the time I can with them.  I’m purposefully planning on spending 2 hours, 3 days a week at the pool.  We go from about 9:30-11:30 so that we aren’t out in the heat of the day.  The kids are loving it!!  Abby is swimming under water and jumping in (all the way under!), Keara is starting to swim under water and Ashlynn just loves to be in the pool!  It’s a good workout and makes for a long nap for Ashlynn after lunch J

Ian is working at La Hacienda still and really enjoys it.  He’s getting a few more shifts now that school is out, and spends the rest of his time with friends.  I still can’t believe he’s going to be a senior this year, man…how time flies.  Next thing I know it will be the girls.  I could not be more proud of him.  He makes such great choices, does well in school and has the best of leadership qualities.  He will go far, that I know.

Plans are set for our road trip to NY next month.  The girls can not wait to see Sophie and Sydney; their cousins.  We will be spending 6 days with Dad and Pat, celebrate my cousins HS graduation and I’ll get a night or two with my awesome SIL and friends out on the town.  My mom is riding along on the trip; I know she worries about me.  I was going to drive it myself since Josh can’t go and Ian wants to stay and continue to work out for soccer.  I’m determined one way or another, I’ve made the drive before and would love the challenge.  Now I will have a driving buddy J  I love Rochester in the summer!  I plan on taking Abby and Keara to the beach one day and  maybe to Sea breeze another. I’m craving a Schaeler’s burger and Abbott’s frozen custard!!!!  Ooh, and a good Friday night fish fry.  Yummy! Lot’s of good times with lot’s of family, that’s the best part. It’s been 3 years since we’ve been back (minus my whirlwind 3 day trip in November).

I’m awaiting my appeal process to UT Arlington’s Financial Aid department.  I guess that my grades in 1995 when I transferred out are now an issue in my ability to qualify for the aid I have been approved for.  We’ll see what happens.  I’m not backing out the program just yet, I’ll wait and see.  If I have to wait or look into another program, so be it.  God will keep it all in perspective for me.

There’s a lot of things on my mind, some directly affecting my family, but I will postpone discussing them.  Once there is more to talk about, I will.  I pray, I pray some more.  I turn all my issues and concerns over to Christ and let Him handle it.  I’m so grateful for my God.  So thankful to have salvation; thankful that I have been randsomed.  My life is blessed.  I do not yearn for more.  I will always yearn to be better; to be as much in Christ as possible. 

 

“But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord.  Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have.  But do this with gentleness and respect, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behaviour in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.” 1 Peter 3:15-16

 

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

 

 

Coupons, Coupons and More Coupons!

Well, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that the TLC show Extreme Couponing didn’t get my blood flowing and it is the reason I got back into utilizing coupons for my grocery shopping. But I learned about coupons like most girls, from mom J   

I’ve had a number of friends who have shown interest in how I “do it” so I figured this is the best place to lay out my game plan.  If you’re looking to spend only $10 a week or save 90% then you’ll be disappointed.  My goal each week is to save about 50-60% (more if I can) and have a small stockpile of frequently used items.  Please know, there are items I buy that are not on sale, out of need; milk, eggs, bread, fresh fruit/veggies, meat ( I stock up on good sales) or if there is something that is just needed and I don’t have a coupon.  I have a $250/wk budget but have been able to cut that to $175 or less and have a stock of items!   

                You’ll notice after about 6 weeks that sales cycle.  It will also take you at least this long to notice you are beginning to stock up on items.  The first 6 weeks are spent getting used to the process and you may feel like you are buying things you will never use.  Trust me, if you have a family you will.         

1.       I start by buying 2-3 papers each Sunday.  If you look at the upper left corner, it will tell you the amount of coupon value inside.  $500 is my mark…Less than that I only buy 2, more than that I buy 3-4.

 I spend about 2 hours clipping all the coupons and organizing them.  If you separate each of the coupon packs and collate them, it is much easier to clip and organize.  However you want to organize, find what system works best for you. I also look for expired ones as I’m organizing.  

2.       My ads come on Tuesday, so on Tuesday night I try to just “glance” over the ads.  I know my coupons and a number of items will stand out to me that I know I have a coupon for. 

3.       On Wednesday I sit down with the Ads and my coupons.  This is the time consuming part, up to 3 hours.  I start with one Ad, and go through by department; grocery, perishable, frozen, home items, hygiene and repeat for each store ad. This way I have only a small group of coupons in front of me at one given time.  This is the key to the whole savings process: 

Each item I purchase must be on sale AND have a coupon!! 

4.       Once I have all the sale items/coupons paired up I make a specific list for each store.  That way, I don’t get sidetracked.  I write the sale price and coupon discount along with bringing the Ad with me.  I’ve had items that are marked higher in the store than in the ad, but the store will correct it for the advertised place.

5.       I do take my coupons with me, sometimes I find a good sale item that wasn’t advertised. I shop on Thursday or early Friday morning.  I refuse to shop over the weekend, everyone else is.  Monday and Tuesday are good if you choose to wait until after the Friday pay-day as the shelves are restocked.

6.       Start with 1 store. I do Kroger, Tom Thumb and Albertson’s (they are all close) but it can be overwhelming at first.  Also, be aware that Kroger’s e-coupons do not double and can NOT be combined with paper coupons (link your card online and you can use them) 

Well, that’s about it!  It seems like a lot, but once you get the routine down, then you start to appreciate the savings and look forward to “beating” last weeks goal!   Rest assured, your SO may think you’re nuts.  Josh can’t figure out why we have 15 boxes of cereal, but at $1 a box why not?  Plus, with 4 kids (yea, Ashlynn eats cereal) we go through about 5 boxes a week.  

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

Herbs de Provence

                Hmm.  It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?  Well, life gets a wee-bit busy, stressful and all too consuming.  Next thing I know, a month has gone by!  I’d like to say I have pictures of what we have been doing, but they are on my camera and this computer takes too long for me to upload them.  So I will wait, and one day I will post just pictures J

                Keara is registered for kindergarten!!  Oh, my, what ever will I do?? (he, he)  I still can’t get over the fact that she is 5 years old!  I feel that because of her health issues it has been so much longer, yet not that long at all.  She has come so far in her treatments.  From the improvements in her severe eczema to being a full year of monthly immunotherapy for her allergies.  Even though we are now adding a daily inhaler for asthma, she is already made improvements with that.  God is GOOD!

                And speaking of God, I’m amazed at how He works!  I have a friend who I’ll call “Pammy” (wink, wink girlfriend).  I met “Pammy” about 15 years ago, I think, when she was a young rebellious little whipper-snapper through my friend Rachael.  Well, let me just say that I used to think it was a fairly immature friendship they had.  Don’t get me wrong, I love Rachael, but at the time I didn’t think it was the leadership/mentoring that “Pammy” needed.  Well, flash forward to today and I am amazed at what an intelligent, funny and mature woman she has grown into!  She has overcome so many obstacles to find true love, raise 2 beautiful girls and reach her goals.  So it was with a sad heart that I have been following the progress of their youngest princess who will have a marathon of a journey to live through with her recent diagnosis of Delayed Myelination. She essentially has speech and gross/fine motor delays related to a lack of insulation on the nerve paths in her brain due to her prematurity.  Occasional seizure like activity because of the “frayed live wire”, but healthy and progressing otherwise.  How awesome that God would put this loving sweet girl into a family who is not only intellectually capable of handling this, but financially and spiritually rich.  “Pammy” has her Masters degree in these types of childhood developmental delays, they have a strong knit family with tight connections, and what a phenomenally strong marriage with a united front! I look forward to each chapter that God writes for them and looking back at how much this enriches their lives. 

                Well, I’m officially a “previously-owned” College Student! UTA is taking me back, just waiting for my official acceptance into the Academic Partnership RN-BSN program.  I still can’t fathom why I’m doing this, but I know it’s time which means it is God speaking and doing.  Praise Him!  August 15^th will be my start date J 

                Here is a little something that has been on my mind lately: Why is it that we have a  underfunded Foster Care System, children with missed meals in school, a high homeless rate, 3^rd world countries without clean water and basic sewer systems but we can run commercials to feed animals high-end cuts of meat, deliver there “daily” medications, have high-class spa centers for dogs/cats, and people spend thousands of dollars on medical care for ANIMALS???????  I mean, seriously people, get a God-centered grip!!!! You should all be ASHAMED at the fact that you are so frivolous with money, so un-empathetic as to put a damn animal before the needs of a child or another human being.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my Coral kitty, but if it meant that I could save one life of a human by putting her to sleep….then night-night kitty. 

 

“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.  And I pray that you, being in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” (Ephesians 3:16-19)

 

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

 

 

Goal!

This will be short but overflowing with excitement!  I finally made it to my 5% goal following the Weight Watchers plan!  I am so excited and have an extra boost of confidence.  It’s like a runners high, you all of a sudden get this extra burst of energy and can go farther and faster J  Speaking of which, I started the 6-week plan to running a 5k this week.  It’s actually better than I expected!  Now, I have only run 2 days, but I’m sticking with each daily plan which includes 3 rest days a week.  I feel like I could go out and put in a run today, but I am forcing myself to follow the plan.  My goal is to run the 2011 Annual Weight Watchers 5k on May 22^nd.  That falls about 6 days after my training ends, so I will be able to run it twice before the big day J It will be my first 5k and then I will work my way to a 10k, entering a few more along the way.  I miss running, the ability to de-stress.

Here’s to working on the next goal…10%!

 

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

 

 

The last of the First's

Yesterday was a bitter sweet day.  Our dearest Ashlynn Sterling turned 1!  She is our youngest and most likely our last so we savored the family time enjoying her, knowing this would be the last 1^st birthday we celebrate. 

                Ashlynn came along at a time when we weren’t quite sure how we would manage another child.  Finances were tight, putting it in the brightest of lights, and our home is only 3 bedrooms.  Let’s just say there was a lot of stress between me and my dh, and had I not had the faith in my Lord and Saviour, probably would be a lot of resentment as well.  But I looked up and told God that in all times and reason, He has a plan.  Despite my hubby’s lack of confidence that “things will work out”, I persisted in prayer and faith.  And He has never let me down!! 

                She has been nothing short of a blessing to our family J  I look back and realize just how much stronger my marriage is, how much more involved daddy is with the kids and more present in our family life in general.  His patience has grown and he loves her beyond any description.  Our home life is not as crazy as you would think, but I owe that to my hubby’s persistence with routine. Financially, crazy enough, things are better!  We are blessed in the fact that we do not use daycare/childcare.  I work my 2 days a week and Josh is home those days.  He’s a great dad and “house husband” on those days, I am so blessed!  Don’t get me wrong, there is the occasional time when we utilize a home child care, and she is absolutely wonderful with the kids!!  Dana, you are a God send!

                Ashlynn has taught us that love and faith will overcome any obstacle.  She has a loving personality, is LOUD, easy-going, and smart.  She knows how to get everyone else to do it for her.  Including walking.  She could walk, if she thought no one would carry her instead!  She has the stubbornness of a mule when it suits, but when nap/bedtime role around, there is nothing sweeter than seeing her curl up with her blankie, stick her thumb in her mouth and fall asleep.  Ashlynn ,we love you and we are so blessed that God chose us to be your loving parents.

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

Time for a Quick Note!

It’s back again.  That nagging feeling that God is about to do something big and bold in our lives.  Not sure what, need to keep praying so that when it is revealed I will have a good pair of glasses on and my miracle ear in.

I love spring!  However, I do not like all the weeds that have made a home in my yard this year.  I am patiently waiting for my dh to pick up the super-duper weed killer (knows a guy who knows a guy) so I can get to work on making the yard “playable”.  Then I will feel more like planting some color and veggies J

Well, we are calling it a loss with the Kia.  Now it is in my hubby’s hands in finding a cheap used car.  And might I re-iterate CHEAP. We have finally paid off both of the vehicles so it pains me to know we will have another car loan.  But Ian needs to drive, he starts work this week at La Hacienda and we can not commit to picking him up so late at night, especially with the little ones.  He will, of course, get his dad’s car.  Which might I add, is nicer than my van!  Somehow, he is making out like a bandit this year.  But with as good of a kid as he is, I’m okay with it.

 

I found a yummy easy (and only 4 WW Points plus!) snack:

Cream together (I used a food processor):

                1 oz fat-free cream cheese

                ¼ cup part-skim ricotta

                ½ medium banana

Toast 2 cinnamon-raisin English muffins (I prefer Orowheat) and evenly spread mixture on each half.  Top with remaining sliced banana and strawberry (or whatever fruit you want). Tada!!  4 open face yummy snackwiches.

 

It’s quite filling and hits that ever present sweet tooth.  I would have taken a picture, but by the time I thought about it, they were about gone J

 

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

 

 

Melancholy

Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be your glorious name….

 

Funny…I had this song stuck in my head and when I plugged my phone in to listen to Pandora, it’s the song that came on J I love the chorus “Every blessing you pour out I’ll turn back to praise, when the darkness closes in lord, still I will say BLESSED BE YOUR NAME!!! “  It truly encompasses every time we should look up in faith, open our heart and praise Him.  The good, the bad and the ugly.  In everything we do.  Every single aspect of our life is connected to God.  Let’s embrace every moment we are given.

I worry.  I know I shouldn’t.  It’s all in the hands of Christ.  But if I didn’t, would it mean I didn’t love him?  Josh.  Oddly, I think his non-belief is teaching me to love in the moment.  See, I have a tendency to look a bit to far into the future and try to figure out how I will react to different situations.  To prepare myself. For death, disability, illness, you name it.  Lately, though, I am realizing that no matter what, God will get me through it and I can not change what is to come nor can I protect myself.  So rather than worry about Josh’s salvation, I am just loving him.  I’m delighting in every moment I have with him (with the occasional marital mishap, of course!)

The Kia still isn’t fixed. UGH!!!!  I called this morning (day 2 at the shop) and it’s “still up in the air, trying to figure out the problem”. Patience, Jenny and Ian, patience.  Stupid check engine light.

Good news!  Ian landed his first real job.  Yea!!  He was hired as a host at La Hacienda Ranch and he is very excited J  I love the boy.  He is such and awesome son, brother, friend and loyal to everyone he cares about.  I still haven’t met McKenna.  Maybe in time.  I’m split on his decision to step down from Varsity football next year.  Part of me really wants him to play.  He’s a starter for pete sake!! But I know it’s his decision to make.  Coach H says they have until August 1 to convince him otherwise.  I pray for Ian to be following Gods intended path for him.

I’m waiting on my transcripts.  The plan is to start the bridge program to my BSN in August.  I figure if I wait until the start of the school year, I will only have the baby home during the day, and if I have to get a sitter it will be easier.  Need the quite to work on those dang papers!!

 

Well…another busy day tomorrow.  Can’t wait to see how God uses me J

 

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

 

 

Yikes!!

I did it again.  Did I not say a multitude of posts back that I was going to make a concerted effort to be diligent and consistent with my blogging??  Well, please forgive me.  Read on as I am sure to have a lot to say J

First, let me say how happy I am at Christ Fellowship.  I have been led to more knowledge and growth than I have had in the last 3 years of my own attempt at bible study.  We are embarking on our second study this year, Movement to Multiply Our Heart which I am so excited to start!  I found myself peeking through the study guide (which I purchased the day they became available) and wanting to reference scripture.  I took a deep breath and CLOSED IT.  There is a process.  A week of daily study (Monday thru Friday), reviewed on Sunday through Sermon and then revisited and discussed in Life Group on Sunday afternoon.  It’s a perfect setup to a threefold of learning.  I can then go out and cover the 4^th part of the cross, my community.   My LG is led by my friends and neighbors (of 4 years) the Stubbs.  They are an awesome family!!

Work is great!  I’m back to my part time hours and now I feel like I’m not there enough. What! You say.  Yea, call me crazy, but I kind of miss my overtime hours.  It was a great time for me.  A great feeling of accomplishment and self worth.  But, Josh is happy to have me home as are the kids.  I’ve pretty much left it in his hands as to whether or not I pick up shifts on the extra week day that is free.  His hours and lessons are getting busy so he needs that extra day to study, golf and schedule extra lessons.  Keara responded with, “I don’t want you to work at all, mommy!”.  Well, dear daughter, we do have to eat.  At least Ian does.

We also had a long discussion of every aspect of my interest in a management position, and after much prayer and contemplation, decided together that this in not the right time.  God has other plans.  I have other desires that would not be able to come to fruition if I take on a full-time position.  Now I just await the blessing from my dh that I can start on my BSN and then bridge to my MSN.  Advanced Practice…here I come!

Ian’s 1999 Kia Sportage is nothing short of a headache this week.  I finally get the title transferred, the registration done and the darn thing won’t pass inspection!!!  The check engine light bulb had been removed and put in the glove box (pre our ownership) and now it won’t turn off.  So we are now 1 replaced sensor into this and praying it will pass the next attempt.  Which we can do in 50 miles. Yep. We have to waste gas to try to get it passed.  Poor kid, he just wants to drive and I want him to drive!!!

Well, my neck is tense, I’m getting tired and the dryer buzzer is going off.  I have my first weigh-in tomorrow for Weight Watchers which I am doing through work.  Wish me luck.  Just a mere 2 lbs of it at least!!

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

Loss, Life and Love

So many things have been happening in my life lately.  It has taken a lot of intense focus on some pretty intense prayer to hear the whisper of what my God is wanting of me.  I’m not sure why, and it probably isn’t for me to know, but 2 wonderfully spirited men made there way to heaven a little “early” this week. 

               

Vern was the Security Officer who manned the front entrance to Heritage Ranch Golf and Country Club.  Now, that may sound like someone who was is the background, but Vern was a stand-out.  He was a tall man, very friendly and always had nice words for everyone.  He always ended his conversation with you, no matter how short, with “and you have a blessed  day!”.  The girls always made sure to talk with him as he made a point to recognize them in the way back of the mini-van.  Vern, you left an impression and I am so grateful that you left this world with Christ in your heart.  You are now reaping the rewards God our Father promises us! (He was only 54)

                Then there is Dr. Ladi Haroona.  What a phenomenal Pulmonologist/CC Intensivist with this awe-inspiring smile!  He was a doctor who not only uplifted you in a professional sense, somehow he managed to know little details about your life and ask you about them when he saw you.  Even if it was only about your children (and how he knew how many/ages is beyond me!).  He touched the lives of his patients with his positive and uplifting attitude and was loved by the nursing and RT staff for his approachability and willingness to listen.  Dr. Haroona, may your legacy live on.  (He was only 48)

               

I know I have spoken of it before, but I have had this strong urge to get my hands dirty and work with my old home base of Cardiac ICU in empowering them to reach the goals and become all they want to be.  It’s a strong emotion that has been stirring in me, and I wondered if some of it was guilt for the choice of recent manager they have been frustrated with.  Whether current changes are God’s way of opening a door for me or His way of facilitating what my prayers have been, I hear ya and I’ve done a lot of soul searching.  I  have spoken with a few real mentors I have, more importantly with my husband, and we looked at every angle.  We discussed the financial impact, the family impact, the professional impact, the impact on our relationship, the pro’s and con’s of each impact, and the educational goals for both he and I.  And did I mention a lot of PRAYER?!  I have come to a decision and I feel very confident that it is the best decision.  I am at ease with my choice, and I know that is God’s way of letting me know it’s the right decision.

 

I’m looking forward to spring.  I love the season of renewal, rebirth and new life.  I love that my children celebrate their birthdays in or near the season.  Keara and Ashlynn were born within a week of Easter!! How awesome to enter this world during the time that Christ was giving of himself for us!  I love my family J

 

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny

 

 

Family

So for Abigail’s 6^th birthday dinner, we took all the family to Buca di Bepo.  It’s this great Italian restaurant that serve’s family style.  That means that you order either small (2-3) or large (4-6) which is perfect for our family of 6!  The food is fantastic, the atmosphere welcoming and the service impeccable.  Sadly, I could not get everyone into one picture, but here are the sisters J We had a great dinner of lemon chicken, broccoli and pasta Diablo…yummy!! Abby, though, chose to have a kids pizza, thin crust style.

Abby enjoying her ice cream brownie!! 

It’s hard for me to believe she is already 6.  Where does the time go?  Ian is 17 which I thought gave me a new perspective on how quickly time passes, but I obviously haven’t quite got it figured out.  She is growing into such a beautiful young lady, full of grace, compassion, empathy, intelligence and a love of life.  She is even beginning to speak of Christ in a much more “grown-up” fashion!  I long for the day when she accepts Christ as her Saviour, what a celebration that will be!!  She has flourished in kindergarten this year, surpassing all expectations and benchmarks.  She is in her 4^th year of ballet, loves her class time and the friends she has there as well. I’m sure these next 6 years will bring about there own change and growth.  We are all so proud of Abby and look forward to seeing what this next year brings!!  We love you sweet Abigail!!

In Him, Forever Blessed...

    Jenny