There is a Season...

These past few months seem to have gone by so quickly! Summer is nearly upon us and Lord I feel like I have accomplished nothing. Abigail is progressed no further with her preschooling, all due to my lack of persistence. It sure makes it a bit more difficult when I am having to work more than my usual 2 days a week. It amazes me just how much more time I have for home and my children by cutting back on just one day a week. I feel like I am letting her down, even though her desire to learn is still very strong (and for that I am grateful).

Things are still a bit rough here with Josh pursuing a new career option. We are cared for first by our Lord, then closely behind from our family and friends. We could not do it without everyone and for that we are immensly grateful. I know in due time, his calling will work out and he can follow his dreams paving a road of happiness for himself. Through Christ all things are possible.


I signed up for one of our Home Groups with Church. This will be a very positive thing for me. I definitely need more spiritual guidance, and need to be surrounded and grounded by those that hold dear the same beliefs and practices as me. I am doing everything in my power to be a true witness in my home, and if this helps strengthen me, then bring it on!!

Ian will be playing in the District Soccer Meet this weekend. His school is going into it in First Place!! Yea!! I wish them all the best of luck, for they are playing so much better as a team than at the beginning of the year.


I will be officially making a career change on May 25th. It is off to the CVICU that I go. I will be taking on Cardiovascular Surgical patients (versus the medical) and moving on to IABP and CRRT. 2 goals of mine to accomplish before I retire (many years from now). I am very excited to be moving on to a highly motivated team with great leadership qualities. I will still be working part time, which I don't think I will ever change? I may have to work extra on occasion, but never sign up for the workload on a permanent basis again. There are 3 reasons at home, and God willing, there will be more.


I find myself repeating, it seems, the same thoughts each time I journal. Is it my way of reinforcing them to myself? Am I that amazed that I can feel so profoundly and deeply for something that is so selfless?? I don't know, maybe it's just that I don't have the secure support for my feelings that I would like to have. Like I am having to prove myself, yet once again, to those I care for as if I'm not good enough.

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus." Philippians 2:3-5