It's been a crazy last 2-3 months. Between dealing with Ian and his summer antics (for which he is now on track) and trying to keep the 3 girls occupied in this darn heat I was so ready for school to start! I feel a little guilty for that, but let's face it; 3 kids running amok in our 1800 sq ft home is not anyone's idea of fun. Or sane.
We didn't get out for any vacations this year. With Josh's schedule and my having to 'bow down' to a certain person at work, I wasn't going to dare ask for any time off. The plan is to head back to NY next summer and spend a few weeks with family, maybe hit the NY State Fair? I know my dad would LOVE for us to come back.
I feel quite distant from scripture right now. I miss BSF (which starts up next week!!!) and I have not found interest in the summer studies through church. I haven't even read any good books since June. I need to get close to my Bible. I still pray daily, without ceasing. The girls and I still talk about God, about Jesus and his impact in our lives. Abigail warms my heart, watching her grow in her walk with Christ. She has started to challenge her daddy in his belief, in a very sweet innocent but determined way. I look forward to getting back into having the Word as part of my daily bread.
My Lord never fails to amaze me. Whether it is in regards to my family or myself. Just as I realize that I am trying to hard, focused to intently, not putting my life completely into His hands and letting His purpose take the wheel He amazes me. Josh and I have been trying since September to conceive again. A choice we made for ourselves, to grow our family. We lost one pregnancy in February. When I look back, I realized how intensely I worked to plan that. God then turned around and showed me who really is charge. Just as He gives, He takes away. In June I threw out the thermometer, ditched the charts and said, "God, your Will and your time. Only you know what is to be in our lives." Well, on July 15 we found out once again what it is like to be parents all over. We were giddy when we looked at the positive sign on the pregnancy test! I had to hide it behind my back so we could see it together. It was quite amusing, silly and young love all over again. It reminded us just how much we love each other, why we love each other and how grateful we are to do life together. Seeing the heartbeat inside our little fetus last week imprinted yet again, that when you let God...He will do amazing things in your life. My dh may not believe in Jesus, but I am so very blessed to share with him my ministry, my testimony and 5 reasons to see HIM in all we have.
